I react on the outside like the first panel, but I’m reacting on the inside like the second one. Especially at night when I’m trying unsuccessfully to go to sleep!
Though I’ve recovered from my depression I am still unable to feel strong positive emotions. I can be pleased, content, or satisfied, and look forward to things, but I no longer feel intense joy, euphoria, excitement, or enthusiasm. Sometimes people get upset when they tell me important positive news (e.g. that they’re getting married or expecting a baby) and I fail to show much reaction.
I’ve had a similar experience but in reverse, received a text from my mother telling me one of my uncles had died and my sister, who I was with at the time, received the same text. I was terribly apathetic to the news, whereas my sister had a very animated reaction to the news, and I remember thinking “Oh so that’s what a normal reaction to this would be”.
Someone close to me recently won a drawing competition that we both entered. I was supposed to feel happy for them, but instead I thought “Why did you ever think you’d deserve it? Selfish. You shouldn’t have even tried.”
So true!
Good news, a gently reminder of how much I failed in life.
I react on the outside like the first panel, but I’m reacting on the inside like the second one. Especially at night when I’m trying unsuccessfully to go to sleep!
I measure my failures by other’s success. But I measure my success by not measuring myself to others? Sure I’ll make that work.
Very true res
onates
So so true. And then I hate myself for not being genuinely happy for them.
I’m happy for them and feel like shit at the same time.
Though I’ve recovered from my depression I am still unable to feel strong positive emotions. I can be pleased, content, or satisfied, and look forward to things, but I no longer feel intense joy, euphoria, excitement, or enthusiasm. Sometimes people get upset when they tell me important positive news (e.g. that they’re getting married or expecting a baby) and I fail to show much reaction.
I’ve had a similar experience but in reverse, received a text from my mother telling me one of my uncles had died and my sister, who I was with at the time, received the same text. I was terribly apathetic to the news, whereas my sister had a very animated reaction to the news, and I remember thinking “Oh so that’s what a normal reaction to this would be”.
Why I have to continually isolate myself. I’m weary of having to put on the front all the time.
Someone close to me recently won a drawing competition that we both entered. I was supposed to feel happy for them, but instead I thought “Why did you ever think you’d deserve it? Selfish. You shouldn’t have even tried.”
yep…