Commentary from December 24, 2015
This is a sequel to what happens in depression comix #261. Maybe one would think I’m exaggerating but thanks to constant mental rehearsal one remembers quite well these things for a very long time.
As my art style settles back into Sexy Losers, these two characters are becoming harder to draw for me. They were designed to be drawn with a thick brush pen and not pen and ink so it’s really hard for me to make them look right. However, the last panel I like a lot — depcom actually started out as a type of humour strip and recently humour has been lacking. It’s been a necessary step to reduce the humour but every once in a while it’s needed just to make the strip easier to digest, I think.
As my art style settles back into Sexy Losers, these two characters are becoming harder to draw for me. They were designed to be drawn with a thick brush pen and not pen and ink so it’s really hard for me to make them look right. However, the last panel I like a lot — depcom actually started out as a type of humour strip and recently humour has been lacking. It’s been a necessary step to reduce the humour but every once in a while it’s needed just to make the strip easier to digest, I think.
You are now apparently the voice in my head. I’m still doing this over stupid crap of the 70’s and 80’s……..
Oh [$DEITY] yes this is so much my life.
It’s always a big deal.
Always.
I’m 50 years old and I do this over things I did in 3rd grade.
Oh yeah, me too. But the ones that kick my ass start in adolescence. I wish stopping that kind of thinking was as easy as wanting to stop.
Been there
Done that
Oh my, yep.
An optimistic strip, at last! He did get old… ?
#fightingdepressionbysarcasm (since 1973)
This is me, yep.
You get to sleep??? Lucky.
Maybe not lucky. Once the voice starts on past failings, the nightmares can start using them for source material. Start with a bad decision or mistake, then think of a way it could have been much worse than it was. Repeat for another one or use the same one with another “worse than what actually happened” ending. All night. Before sleeping and after getting to sleep.
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!! ( that was too close to comfort)
Dude… let it GO! LOL. (Scary though, my grama does this. Guess it’s genetic?)
“One is finally grateful for a failing memory.”
– from the star Trek episode The Conscience of the King
Nothing I’m sorry I did…But I’m sorry I did not wring the neck of half a dozen assholes!
I like to think of this as a broken evolutionary mechanism – remembering “don’t ever eat those pink berries that made you sick last time” becomes remembering “don’t ever do that thing that socially humiliated you when you were 6”. Some of those traumatically learned memories are useful, most are just impedimenta.
I am constantly kicking myself about the stupid shit I’ve done. One moment I’m having a normal day and BAM! I’m hating myself so much for something stupid I said 22 years ago.
So true. Even for someone without depression, a detailist with good memory is enough. I am replaying all the tiny stupidities done ever, even if it’s 30 years ago, and still feel embarrassed and ashamed for them. 🙁