I want to share this on my wall because I’ve got several friends who would also totally “get” this, but I’m afraid some other people will see it as me looking for attention and being self pitying. don’t think I can take any more well-intentioned but completely condescending words of wisdom.
Ugh. I hate making long-term plans because of a milder version of this. Like “why bother with pension payments, probably not gonna be around long enough to actually get pension anyway” or anything else that’s months/years away.
I used to feel exactly the same way. One day I mentioned to a psychiatrist that I figured I’d be dead within a year, just as an offhand remark, but he was very surprised and alarmed. I had already told him I was depressed, and that I spent hours every day imagining ways to kill myself. Maybe he hadn’t realized I was serious.
Depression can make life feel like solitary confinement in a deep, dank, cold, and utterly dark hole. You just want to escape. It’s important to realize that what you need to escape from isn’t life itself, it’s the depression, and that these are two separate things.
Earlier this year, I was feeling suicidal, but I realized that it’s not actually death that I want… what I really want is to live life FULLY… the problem, however, is that currently, I’m living life BARELY, which is excruciating, and I’m so tired of fighting yet not gaining any traction toward anything different.
Feeling like this lately. It gets worse when I think about all the money my parents spend in therapy and other things when I don’t think I’m gonna make it that far. (Sorry if you can’t understand it, English isn’t my first language).
*sigh*
This hurts.
So, so familiar.
Whenever I get one, autosend to spouse and children to remind them of how hurtful my parents were to me in the first 18-19 years of my life
Once again, this is the character I can relate to the most. I missed her.
She is one of my favorites to draw.
So raw and true to how it feels.
I want to share this on my wall because I’ve got several friends who would also totally “get” this, but I’m afraid some other people will see it as me looking for attention and being self pitying. don’t think I can take any more well-intentioned but completely condescending words of wisdom.
Is it possible/practical to only share to the right people?
I suppose I could.
“Well intentioned but completely condescending words of wisdom” is the best description I’ve heard of it.
If they tell u that they find u to be self-pitying and attention-seeking, get rid of them. They r not good 4 u. <3
Understood
I don’t fear death, neither do I pursue it. It’s just another place I have visited and left behind and may see again.
My first thought upon waking every morning is, “Dammit, I’m still alive.”
Hang in there
same here
🙁 too true
This.
I completely get this one. Daily
Ugh. I hate making long-term plans because of a milder version of this. Like “why bother with pension payments, probably not gonna be around long enough to actually get pension anyway” or anything else that’s months/years away.
I used to feel exactly the same way. One day I mentioned to a psychiatrist that I figured I’d be dead within a year, just as an offhand remark, but he was very surprised and alarmed. I had already told him I was depressed, and that I spent hours every day imagining ways to kill myself. Maybe he hadn’t realized I was serious.
Depression can make life feel like solitary confinement in a deep, dank, cold, and utterly dark hole. You just want to escape. It’s important to realize that what you need to escape from isn’t life itself, it’s the depression, and that these are two separate things.
Agarax, I so appreciate many of your comments.
Earlier this year, I was feeling suicidal, but I realized that it’s not actually death that I want… what I really want is to live life FULLY… the problem, however, is that currently, I’m living life BARELY, which is excruciating, and I’m so tired of fighting yet not gaining any traction toward anything different.
Feeling like this lately. It gets worse when I think about all the money my parents spend in therapy and other things when I don’t think I’m gonna make it that far. (Sorry if you can’t understand it, English isn’t my first language).
I can totally relate to that last panel, and in fact the whole strip.
Goddammitt. Every day. Every day. Especially the “relief?…disappointment?”.
“Should I cancel now in case something should happen between now and then?” [Every weekend].
Yes. The biggest disappointment each day is waking up.