This happens to me at work all the time. It’s worse then cause I can’t just run off and be alone, I have to keep working and just avoid people as much as possible. When my depression came surging in when I used to work at a call center though.. It was my own area of hell. Full of self loathing and frustration, and I had to deal with a bunch of people yelling at me about how everything was my fault
God, I HATE when this happens while at work! I hate it. But the alternative is feel okay for work and get slammed on the weekend, which then feels like you wasted the only time you had to yourself before you have to go back to work, and then you feel guilty about “wasting” your time to yourself and “failing” to do any hobbies you keep intending to do when you’re not at work. So if the storm is over by Monday morning, you feel guilty and battle weary, but if it’s not over by Monday morning, the rest of the week is just extended hell.
Alright, enough lurking, more participating. I found this about two months ago and read through the archives real quick, now I’m a follower. I’d like to take a moment and say THANK YOU so much for articulating the whole thing with compassion and understanding all around. Arrrrrrgh this. I so often wish for company and close friends and good times, like I remember having, and then this shit starts up and there goes my “had a nice time” possibility. Why. Why, brain, can’t we have nice things.
I had this happen to me in office, too … I was hiding in the restroom a lot back then, but that also only worked because a few of my colleagues already had an idea what depression was like. Also, I did a lot of “overtime” when everyone else was gone – the perks of being a programmer and not bound to specific times for operating.
But yeah, that sudden flush of despair can hit you anytime.
To be honest, for me it seems that being among people (especially larger crowds) really brings on that wave of despair. It’s why I leave the christmas party at my company very early, every year, because I just can’t stand it any more, because I feel it coming, and I can’t take it anymore, and I can’t deal with it then and there. There’s only a few people with whom this doesn’t happen. Very, very few people.
The best solution I’ve found is to take out your phone, pretend you’re reading a just-received text, then say something along the lines of “oops, i have to go now, see ya!”
Me today.
Been there. Usually end up suddenly leaving with no explanation or goodbyes.
Yep. This is something I can relate to.
I don’t get out enough to have one of these episodes, but I had a couple as a teen.
The worst part is that it’s really not their fault they think like that
Me at internship, sometimes. Heh.
Ellie Govinden
THIS!
Been here before.
Perfect visual description of it
Every time
This happens to me at work all the time. It’s worse then cause I can’t just run off and be alone, I have to keep working and just avoid people as much as possible. When my depression came surging in when I used to work at a call center though.. It was my own area of hell. Full of self loathing and frustration, and I had to deal with a bunch of people yelling at me about how everything was my fault
God, I HATE when this happens while at work! I hate it. But the alternative is feel okay for work and get slammed on the weekend, which then feels like you wasted the only time you had to yourself before you have to go back to work, and then you feel guilty about “wasting” your time to yourself and “failing” to do any hobbies you keep intending to do when you’re not at work. So if the storm is over by Monday morning, you feel guilty and battle weary, but if it’s not over by Monday morning, the rest of the week is just extended hell.
Perfect
Yup… 🙁
Alright, enough lurking, more participating. I found this about two months ago and read through the archives real quick, now I’m a follower. I’d like to take a moment and say THANK YOU so much for articulating the whole thing with compassion and understanding all around.
Arrrrrrgh this. I so often wish for company and close friends and good times, like I remember having, and then this shit starts up and there goes my “had a nice time” possibility. Why. Why, brain, can’t we have nice things.
Perhaps that’s something we’re not worthy of….
Yeah, that’s what depression tries to convince you about.
Please don’t let it win.
When I don’t show up to stuff, it is often because I am trying to prevent this from happening.
http://t.co/5YmoEQoghT via @depressioncomix
I had this happen to me in office, too … I was hiding in the restroom a lot back then, but that also only worked because a few of my colleagues already had an idea what depression was like. Also, I did a lot of “overtime” when everyone else was gone – the perks of being a programmer and not bound to specific times for operating.
But yeah, that sudden flush of despair can hit you anytime.
#Depression, #anxiety, and #shyness are often mistaken for being ‘stuck up’ or disinterested in others. http://t.co/jS8Q6bSM31 There’s more.
To be honest, for me it seems that being among people (especially larger crowds) really brings on that wave of despair. It’s why I leave the christmas party at my company very early, every year, because I just can’t stand it any more, because I feel it coming, and I can’t take it anymore, and I can’t deal with it then and there. There’s only a few people with whom this doesn’t happen. Very, very few people.
So… thank you. Again.
The best solution I’ve found is to take out your phone, pretend you’re reading a just-received text, then say something along the lines of “oops, i have to go now, see ya!”
228 http://t.co/nkwnpaGyn6 via @depressioncomix
Been there.